Please help🩷🩷

I don’t want to diagnose myself, but I’m starting to think I might have OCD or something similar. I’ve been struggling with this for a long time, and it’s getting worse every day. The problem is that I have obsessive thoughts that I simply cannot get out of my head. Even when I know that these thoughts are not real, I still can’t stop thinking them.

Here’s one example: my mom was traveling to another country, and the trip takes about 10 hours. I knew she wouldn’t have internet to contact me, and we agreed that as soon as she found Wi-Fi (once she reached her accommodation), she would message me. After just 2–3 hours, I started having very vivid images of her dying in a car crash, and I felt like I was just waiting for a call to tell me she had passed away.

It got so extreme that when she actually called me after 2–3 hours (which was even earlier than planned), I thought someone was using her phone to tell me she had died. In reality, she had simply found internet sooner and wanted to let me know she was okay. During that whole time, I was in a state of complete panic and hysteria.

This is just one example, but things like this happen to me constantly, and I don’t know where to look for help or in which direction to go. Please, does anyone else have similar experiences?