I am a 21 year old (Man) porn addict and I have no desire to stop

I had a phase where I thought I wanted to stop, but the truth is I can't and won't stop. I truthfully have no desire to. I can feel my brain rotting and I can feel my thought process is sick and sexualized. I see that I have isolated myself from everyone and became a loner. I've even felt relieved when my former girlfriend left me. I felt relief and sadness at the same time. That meant more free time to indulge in pornography. I haven't had a single day without porn ever since the age of 13. It's been 8 years. And I have gigabytes upon gigabytes of pornography and multipek flash drives. I feel that for my kind love and normal life was never meant to be. I simply am not capable of stopping and I have admitted this full stop. And perhaps that's a way to justify my addiction but the truth is I'd rather die than stop.