Can't sleep [discussion of contamination]

I have trouble taking care of myself. I haven't showered in a shameful amount of time.

My fiancee, bless her, washed the bedding to help make the room more comfortable. That was really nice of her, but...

I'm struggling to gather the executive functioning to shower. It's 1pm and I haven't slept since the bed was made at 8 (I took a nap between about 6:45 am and 8 am before she put the sheet on the bed). I can't even sit in the bed. I'll contaminate the sheets with my dirty body.

I'm so tired. I don't know if it would even be safe for me to shower in the state I'm in at this point. But if I contaminate the bedding, it will need rewashed, or it will be dirty and then I cannot shower because it will touch my body and make me dirty again as soon as I do.

I don't know what to do. I'm so upset I can hardly think straight. At this point I'm considering sleeping on the floor.