Found out my husband messaged a girl he watched…

Long story short because I’m so low on energy,

My husband has had an addiction the whole time I knew him, BUT said he was fine and recovered before we got married. Turns out 3 months after being married he started using again (after me complain our sex life was near NON existent)

Well the site he was on he has an account (with zero transactions bc I checked but STILL) that is following over 500 women and he has had since he was 15 years old…and not only is it porn but it is BDSM extreme…I mean lowkey an abusing, humiliation and gRape (I hate saying that word bc I was sexually assaulted really bad prior to this man) content. I mean EVIL porn.

So this idiot likes a post she sends an auto message to “add her on snap to talk more” and the man ads her and says “hey! Saw you on fettish love your work.” And obviously the woman isn’t going to freaking entertain a man who isn’t freaking paying.

Obviously I processed and we split up for the night. Made flight plans to go home. Woke up the next morning and took my last pregnancy test I have from the literal time we did it (I also have PCOS and extreme hormonal issues so I’ve not been worried) and well…

It says I’m pregnant.

I’m beside myself. I already told him we are basically done, but with the baby news I did tell him if he took action and got help like all our family and friends have told him I will give him a sliver of grace. He said he will be going therapy and spiritual counseling as well as getting a porn blocker on his phone that I control.

What do I do? I’m so defeated. I told him so many times how proud I was of him for being clean…so many times….. and not only does he start using 1/2 times a month again (with EVIL content) but he messaged a freaking girl….

Help