My wife died and I don’t know how to be a dad on my own

I’m still in shock. My wife and I had twins last year. We thought we could handle it together. She was the rock. Then a couple weeks ago she went for a run, and some teenager who was texting while driving hit her. She didn’t make it. Now it’s just me and two babies.

I’m in residency, gone most of the time. The house is a mess, the kids cry constantly, and I honestly don’t know how to do this. I want to be strong for them but I barely sleep. My family helps a little but they live far. I feel like I’m drowning every day.

What do you even do when the person who held everything together is suddenly gone?