I think im gonna b alone forever

First off Ik no one is gonna see this but I just wanna say this isn't some doom & gloom feel bad for me soapbox. Ive been thinking logically about this and been doing alot of thinking and tbh im too far gone to have a friend let alone a partner, I've tried befriending ppl before maybe its me maybe its them but everytime its no longer than 6 months before im ghosted. Logically tells me that I am the problem which I still believe despite changing drastically from how terrible I was back then: Im not homophobic racist misogynistic egotistical I always give ppl the benefit of the doubt im not a gremlin hiding in the basement im hopefully approachable but so far the only ppl who approach me r sales reps homeless or someone who wants smth.

I've just been alone for so damn long im too socially awkward to know wut to say even tho i try saying hi to random ppl or complimenting which at best lasts a few moments. Sometimes I wander aimlessly in crowded to see all the couples and groups of friends laughing and enjoying life while I'm just here. The only ppl that r in my life is my family n I feel like they just put up with me, im tryna stay optimistic home ill finally hit it off with someone but the odds r always stacked against me so that happening is very unlikely