i feel like i’m a really shitty partner for feeling so sad

my boyfriend (18m) and i (18f) are long distance, both in different countries. we’ve only been dating about two months now, but we’ve known each other over a year. we did date once and broke up, spent about six months apart, rebuilt our relationship. not gonna go too much into that cause it isn’t relevant to the story, just a little bit of background.

we’re both starting our first year of college/uni. i started about four weeks before he did, his first day is today. i feel incredibly bad for feeling a bit sad. i’m very very proud of him for getting into a school he wanted to and for having the chance to make new friends and have new experiences now. i just miss him a lot anyways, and i miss him even more lately. i’ve had no luck in finding friends and my roommate is…not the nicest, to say the very least. he’s my safe space, my person, and i just miss him extra lately. i know he’s gonna be busy meeting new people and going out and sorting out his schedule, and i just wish i could hug him right now and talk to him face to face.

i know this is an irrational jealousy, and i hope it doesn’t seem like i’m a terrible person for feeling sad right now. i love him dearly, he’s my heart. i want him to succeed and be so happy at uni. i just miss him a little extra right now.