Feeling numb

My ex broke up with me months ago. We kept in daily communication these last few months. He was giving mixed signals about the possibility of working through things. He still told me he loved me and missed me during those months. He was also still acting possessive of me, who I was hanging out with, etc. one time he thought I went out on a date he lashed out and blocked me and was extremely upset. It’s been frustrating that he won’t choose me and reiterates he doesn’t want to be together yet he’s holding on to me at the same time. I had tried to leave several times, blocked him and said goodbye and he’d just call me no caller ID and beg me in emails to unblock him and talk to him and I’d give in.

Two weeks ago I went to visit him with the intention that it’s our last time meeting ( he lives 2 hours away). He told me I’m an embarrassment, that I have no life, that he wants to spit on me, that he wants to punch me in my face and hit me, that he hopes I get into an accident. When I hugged him goodbye he called me cake face (making fun of my makeup that slightly got on his shirt) and mindless (he knew that’s something that I’m sensitive to and would hurt me). I hugged and kissed him passionately and got coldness in return. All this after I made a two hour drive to him to share what I thought would be one last sweet moment.

When I got home that day, all the disrespect hit me and I blocked him everywhere. He emailed several times telling me he loves me and saying sorry. So I unblocked him and I sent him the long goodbye message I had planned to send which he read a few days later and replied with a heart.

I had a minor injury and ended up in hospital two days after I saw him and he was very concerned keeping up with me about it. I blocked him the next day and told him I have no reason in staying considering him lacking value, love and respect for me. And considering everything I did to fight for the relationship that he did not reciprocate. I told him I deserve the same love I offer and I deserve to be fought for. I then blocked him everywhere with the intention of never communicating again.

He’s been calling no caller ID and emailed twice saying he misses me and wants to know how I’m feeling and doing in regards to my injury. It’s been 6 days no contact.

Should I reply back telling him to fuck off or just leave it? Does he even regret the disgusting things he said to me the last time we met or realise how damaging it was and how I feel like I lost my sense of self worth? Does he even fucking care how evil and destructive what he said was to someone who was already broken?