"Brilliant" Idea

After a long time plotting to k1ll myself, I finally started to do it. I've tried a few times this year but I was unsuccessful, so I had this "brilliant" idea to cut through the skin in my arm with a razor blade so that I can reach my vein and bleed to death. But I've done some research and for that to be possible, I have to lose more than 40% of my blood, which is about 2 litters for that to happen.

So here's my situation, I have a deep open wound in my arm that doesn't bleed at all, and I don't know what to do, I keep cutting it but only a little amount of blood comes out, nothing more.

I know, I'm stupid, but I've done more stupid things than that, and I'm tired, I can't even k1ll myself property, I just want all this to be over, I hate my life, I don't like to live, there's no good in that. I don't feel guilty doing it, I just want a quick way out. If I had an easy way to get a gun, I would blow my head right away.