I want to be hojest

I've finally crossed the last line of dignity i had when jerking off to porn.

Shit i forgot to begin. I watch porn.

Daily. Im only a teenager and i wqtch porn daily. I made a pact with a friend to go off jerking off atleast till the end of the year and i fucked it up i used to have secret goon sessions with porn on reddit and they keep getting worse.

Lately there have been some ai deepfake websites that you can use to undress people. I told myself id never do it. FUCK. I did it once to this girl i knew. I said id nev3r do it again. This kept going on with more people and more types of porn on reddit and vpns. Today i tried factiming online to jerk off with people. Its one pf tne things i never even thogujt of doing. I did it. The only other thing i said id never do was use the ai apps on this girl i liked and respected and shes perfect. Today. I did it today. My balls hurt. I feel like vomiting. I want her to leave me so i cam shrivel uo and die. Ive never been honest even about non porn stuff i am such a fuck up im so addicted and this js like my last resort. I cant tell anybody. I cant confide in anything else. Its already like 3 am. This is a alt account ive been using just for porn. I hate myself

So ig tomorrow is like day one again. Wish me the best of luck. I hope i can make it up to god. I want to change everhthihg. I need q factory reset