19M Gay at Religious Texas University: Will I ever find love?

As above explains…I go to a religious university in Texas and while it was the best decision for me academically it was probably the worst decision for me romantically. I apologize that this will sound pretty defeatist as I’m normally a really smiley and happy person. To give an idea, I’d say I’m a pretty attractive guy (maybe not a 9 or a 10 but up there) and I’m relatively smart (3.8 gpa, double major and triple minors). It’s just that nothing here seems to reflect anything good in terms of relationships.

Yea if I wanted to hookup I could hookup with the countless “straight” religious guys but I don’t want that. Or I could get on dating apps (which aren’t much better than hookup apps). I want someone to know and to cherish and for that to be their want too…it’s just hard here. Basically, does it get better? Or is that not just here? Because it’s hard having something to hope for when it’s failure after failure.