Balance

Insert edgy thanos joke

There is no way for our relationship to ever be balanced, not after the past, not after the present. That doesnt matter to me though.

I know you may have considered this why is mitch giving me such explicit details about his life, crimes, timeliness, dangerous information.

Well its not to seem cool, its not to try and attract you, its to give you power over me.

If you feel I wronged you, use it, seriously I wouldnt blame you, jesus I want you to if you would feel any satisfaction from it.

You could easily give my information to people who would kill me, get me locked away for life if you wanted.

I wouldnt blame you, god its funny, our relationship was so unbalanced, but I loved you, I felt guilt about that so I destroyed it? God i was delusional. There is no excuse for it regardless of what was occurring.

I know you wont read this so here's my final cruel act.

You are in my will, you get pretty much it all. So is that good? Is it good that an ex is including you in his will? Someone you didnt even date that long. Someone who mistreated you.

Is it fair that one day a lawyer will contact you and inform you that you will recieve things due to my life ending?

How will that make you feel?

Look my ex fiancee she stole from me, I am leaving money to my exes who treated me well, but you, k you are being left pretty much everything, including my fucking firearms I built.

Honestly I have such mixed feelings on them, I hope you can decide what to do eith them, they are all legal so keep them if you want! Give them to my brothers or sell them. It is your choice.

I plan on living, building my wealth and supporting you as long as I can. I won't die by my own hand, god why does this read as the ramblings of an insane sucidal man.

I am happy, I am living damn near my best life, I got to see you have an improvement in your health which makes me ecstatic.