Irony

Let me introduce myself, Im Devin a working college student who has spent the last 10 months improving myself. Iv lost 100lb, gained great friends, close to graduation, and much more. Many people will tell me " Thats awsome, your doing it" or whatever else.

The th8ng is im still depressed, hate myself and have a negative viewpoint on life. I know it's wr9nge, unhealthy, yet I still think and act this way. I should be proud of myself, yet I cant believe. It all feels like a lie to me.

I see the truth now, depression and anxiety is caused by ourselves. We actively think and act this way which in returns rules the fire of self destruction. I know isolating myself, drink8ng, and binge eating is a horrible way to cope but I am. Im choosing it, it's so funny. All these solutions yet I choose to wallow in despair, I hate myself. I choose this, we all choose this so please stop. I wanna stop, we all need to stop and love ourselves. Don't be me, please.