I didn’t want to lose myself

She made the first move and from there things felt natural. We moved very fast while we both said we wanted to take things slow. She told me that she’d never ghost, never make me feel like an option, be open, honest, and direct if there were any problems or feelings changed. We committed to each other said I love you and put a label on the relationship. Talked about the future and eventually moving in together. She made me feel valued and seen. She told me I made her feel safe and happy. After one long weekend together she changed. I noticed it immediately that morning that she wasn’t her usual self. She even made a joke about ghosting me. That triggered my anxiety and it went all downhill from there. The texts became less, the replies longer, no longer sharing everything like she used to. She was upset about the pace and wished we had slowed down. I offered the compromise to slow down but then it became “I want to start over with no labels but remain exclusive”. It became you fell harder than me and I’m not at that level but I just matched her energy. She dodged making plans twice and after being ignored the entire day I broke and had to end it. I called her out for stringing me along and trying to ghost me while bringing up her contradictions. She left me on read and removed me from everything. The emotional turmoil I’ve been going through has broken me multiple times and I still can’t get past the confusion. I really don’t know where it went wrong. I miss her so much because I lost the future I thought we both wanted.