(22f)Still not over him!

So I got ghosted by this guy who I was with 7 months back and he was the only person I liked being with the only person who made me feel safe and like myself. And out of nowhere he just ghosted me one day and idk why I just can't get over him I tried everything at the end of the night everyday I end up crying cause I can't really take it i can't really get over him, I don't want to atleast, I can't believe it was him who did that to me . I wanna call him out, cry infront of him , I want him to know how I miss him ,how I try to hate him but end up not doing so , how I feel so empty,I wanna know why he did it, and if I really deserved that ,like honestly did I? And here I am crying writing a random post on reddit cause nothing really worked... Idk what to do anymore I really don't wanna be here . I don't feel like being here! I can't handle this anymore. Idk what to do next! I need help!