All I want out of life is to die

All I want out of life and all I have wanted out of life for the last 6-8 years is to die. I am not currently in a position where things are so bad I can justify the harm done to those around me by my suicide, so I continue to go through the motions living solely for the sake of others. Any proposed solution or suggestion for improvement is pointless, because I don't want to get marginally better until maybe after another 6-8 years I don't spend every day wanting to die. I don't want to go to university, I don't want to work, I don't want to go outside. On the list of things I want right below die is to spend my life either sleeping or high, because those are at least close to death. Everything else, every other goal is solely placed upon me by others. And now because I am not selfish enough to say fuck it and kill myself I have to deal with sharing a house with a bunch of morons to incompetent to take care of there own dishes or laundry, eating bland slop food because I am unable to cook and to demotivated to learn, taking courses I couldn't care less about in pursuit of a degree I don't want