I am a player when I don’t have feelings for someone but as soon as I do my personality changes and I lose my game

I am a player. I am not bragging but I am very successful sexually with woman. I am attractive,charismatic, cheeky, assertive and full of confidence and flirtatious so I typically get most girls I try.

But for some reason as soon as I actually have feelings for a girl I become a completely different person. I get shy, nervous, and scared to mess up and become a shell of myself.

There has been 3 girls that I actually had emotional attraction for and wanted a relationship with.

The first girl, We were in a talking stage for months and I never made a move except for kissing her once. I was so nervous and scared to try anything in case I messed up. She began to only see me as a friend and started dating someone else.

The second girl, we had a sexual relationship for 6 months before I started to realise I was in love with her. As soon as I realised I loved her my game was completely out the window and I became so shy and nervous around her, she started wondering why my personality changed so much. I wasn’t my usual cheeky cocky arrogant self that she liked about me, I became overly nice and a whole pushover and it got her the ick and she started to only see me as a friend and stopped having sex with me. Ironically she was in-love with me the entire time we had a sexual relationship and asked to date me multiple times but I refused. But once I caught feelings for her and my personality changed she lost feelings and left.

The third girl, is similar to the first one. I knew I instantly was in love with her the second I seen her at a house party. I got her number and talked and meet up a few times after and again I didn’t even make a single move because I was so scared to mess up. Again I wasn’t my usual cheeky, cocky and assertive and confident self. I behaved more like a submissive puppy again and she saw me as a friend.

This is a sick joke. I have been blessed to be able to pull most girls, yet cursed to have no game with the girls I actually like.

I need to figure out a way to fix this about myself and maintain the same personality girls like about me to the ones I actually want a relationship with.