Hate borrowing and asking.

Can’t wait until I start my second job hopefully I can set myself up to never have to ask for any petty favors or help again for a very long time or ever. He’ll ima grown man asking for money for effing McDonald’s! I always try to help the needy and give more than I receive but when I need help it’s almost non existent. It’s like life is telling me I’m too damn nice or something but even in the Bible it says to help the lowly one. I don’t see myself being one of those “nah can’t help you” or “I don’t have it right now” kind of guys especially if I have it because naturally I like to help others but it sucks when its the other way around. Idk just venting ignore me.