Is this penis envy?

I totally understand that pegging does NOT indicate any particular sexual orientation. I understand that sexual orientation is completely separate from whatever sexual activity you enjoy.

I was just reading some comments from both men and women all over the web, including Reddit and Quora, and so many people keep saying “nothing beats the real thing”. I’m starting to believe it, because this opinion is everywhere. And the more I read about it, the less I want to engage in pegging anymore. I saw some women describe it as feeling like a “consolation prize”, and yeah…that’s how I feel right now.

I want to make it clear that I do not believe pegging a man will make him cheat on me. I do not believe that pegging will make a man leave me for another man. This post is about how I feel about my own body.

I keep seeing men on this sub saying that they wish their girlfriend or wife could feel pleasure from the strap on, and this sentiment has made me insecure with myself. I have seen some guys describe the intoxicating experience of having a guy ejaculate inside them, and it makes me sad because I can’t do that. I’ve seen guys say that men just have that instinct to thrust much more naturally. I’m just jealous. I feel like a cheap imitation of what’s “better”. I have expressed this insecurity before but people seem to think it’s more about my fear that a man might leave me, but that’s not the case. I just hate reading about men and women talking about how incredible it feels to have the real thing inside of them and feeling upset that I physically can’t do that. I know with the right partner I may feel seen and respected and wanted, etc. But how do I shake the feeling that I will never be as great as half the population? I might get downvoted for saying that, because while I DO NOT believe men are better than women, the constant rhetoric has changed the way I see myself and it hurts.