I don’t know how to do this.

The woman I love wants nothing to do with me anymore. I can’t breathe. I feel like I’m dying inside with every minute of silence. I don’t even understand exactly how we ended up here. What I mean is… we both tried and wanted the same thing for so long but it always just went off the rails.

She was the first person to really treat me right. I didn’t know… I didn’t truly know love until her. She was so proud just to stand next to me. She was so protective of me. She made me feel safe.. so safe I had sober sex for the first time with her.

She’s the sweetest and most incredible woman I’ve ever known. How? How did we end up here? How can I possibly go on without her now that I know her? I don’t know how to do this. I’m so scared I won’t come back from this mentally… I don’t think I can do this. She believed in me… she loved me…

I can’t do this….