I think I (22F) hate my bf (28M)

I (22F) have been with my bf (28M) for the past four years. I met him in college my first year (he went late) and then he later moved back to his home state after graduation. Ever since graduating college, he has not held a job. He does gigs here and there (selling PC parts, fixing stuff), which I don’t think is sustainable long-term, and is making me question the reality of my future with him. I respect the hustle and he has talked about doing landscaping as a future plan, but I’m not sure how viable that is considering he hasn’t put effort into actualizing that plan.

Main reason: we are long-distance, and ever since that first year, I’ve met him in-person once (last September). He doesn’t make an effort to come visit me despite having the money for it. I don’t visit because I’m freshly out of college, and am actively applying to jobs. Oh, he lives with his parents so yeah.

He is also an avid video game player. He plays WoW and POE every single day, and does so for hours besides helping out family on the farm. He will raid Wednesdays and Saturdays, for hours at night. He will also talk about video game lingo as if it’s something extremely serious, and such a huge accomplishment, and there’s not a lot I can do but cringe. I might be judgmental but I’m over it.

Beyond this, he will not willingly spend time with me unless I bug him for it. He verbally abuses me with despicable words and blocks me whenever we get into arguments. I just don’t feel loved or desired by him. I think I resent him. He has not sent me one gift in the past four years, only flowers on my birthday after I literally begged him for them. I don’t know if I have too many expectations, but what am I getting out of this relationship?