Landing soon

We are both laughing at my choices now, she thinks its pretty cool I let an ex think she "finessed" me for money and pretended to be upset.

I am not sure where she got the last part from, I am upset lmfao, but I also am aware I live a life better than alot of millionaires so fucking whatever. Who cares about a down payment on a house and a few gifts, I lost more in a few months with the old job lol.

She got the honest truth, she thinks I am cool, she said so at least lmfao, whats cool about a this? In my 30s, upset over a girl I cheated on, that I led on, moving on and finding happiness like I TOLD HER TO.

Yeah I wish I was with her, I also wish I was a dragon, both are equally fantastical. Its astounding to me that people will read statements of longing, just and remorse and assume intent for future actions to perpetuate that cycle.

I am happy when she visits my dreams and thoughts, I also am still happy about a compliment I got in 2013.

Thats the way I work, I will never stop loving her, one day I will find someone I love more even if I cant comprehend that now.

Knowing my luck im somehow going to end up with her again and ruin it again, the universe really likes doing that to me.