Really bad

I can’t stop the constant mental torment of my thoughts. For years, especially the last year, I drank my problems away almost everyday. Tried to quiet or numb the thoughts. I got sober 13 days ago and now I have no way to run from them. I’ve been getting worse everyday. I don’t truly want to end it, but I don’t know how much longer I can take it. So many emotional problems and no way to deal with them. I’m really scared that I won’t make it that much longer. I need help.