Rock Bottom. Should I live alone, or would that destroy me?

Dated an avoidant (possible narcissist) for 7 years. The constant abandonment made me crazy and I lost myself. We lived together for 3 years in his house. I became violent, he kicked me out, packed my things, no conversation - broke up with me over text and has discarded me.

I am panicking. I don’t know who I am. I find myself over texting my friends who are tired of my shit.

I am toying with either getting my own place (might be empowering?) or may live in a room of a house with roommates (I could see how this could be degrading to me because I just turned 30 and don’t really want to have roommates).

Is it possible to live alone and recover? Would getting a dog help? (I gave mine to the avoidant because the dog is accustomed to that house).

Right now I can see how I’d see no point in getting dressed. Eating healthy. Being social. Because I literally don’t think doing anything alone is worth it. And I work remote.

I will plan on going to coda. And reading “you’re not crazy you’re codependent” and “codependent no more”.

But I can rely on my family or friends to trauma dump on. Please share any tips or insight.