30 m married lonely

Been abused tortured bullied in childhood by parents, peers, and totally unloved. It all left me all traumatised and i carried it all in the adulthood.

Had a relief for 3 years when finally eventually everything seemed going normal then again it all came crashing down in life from all fronts.

Been 13 years bow and have been battling this daily, and still with toxic hateful family and more toxic wife.

Got nobody at all to even talk to or share. No friends and just not a single soul.

Am a pathetic loser failure unmanly piece of human shit lol. ✨💖