I am no longer trying

12 when I started cutting. 22 now. And I've finally accepted that there is no future for me that doesn't include self harm.

I don't know if it's just the post-SH euphoria or if I just feel free because I know I don't have to fight it anymore.

I just know, if I'm going to continue living for another ?? years, self-harm needs to remain in my regular toolbox. Just as much as psych meds.