Today I am hurt and alone

Today I am hurt and broken. The thoughts are back. And I can't live with this again. I don't want to. I don't want to keep going. For what? To be broken again? No... I can't do that again... I feel sick to death right now and I just want to be done. What's the point? Why keep going? I fight so hard for what? To be alone at the end of it all anyway? I don't want to do this anymore. I'm so damn tired and nothing is going right anymore. I can't even get close to anybody new and I'm fading further and further away from the few people I do have.