Seriously hate my breasts and the rest of my body

They are growing in badly, I think it's tuberous. Apparently nothing I can do about it unless breast augmentation.

They look so ridiculous. I don't care if the "right person" will love them. I don't love them. Along with rest of my body. I spend 30 minutes looking in the mirror trying to make them look right and they don't.

I look like a skeleton beneath these clothes. A skeleton with self inflicted scars all over. The only good aspect of me is my face and that's just an assumption.

My hands, feet, thighs, everything sucks.

I don't want to wait 10+ years to finally be financially stabled and get breast augmentation. I want them fixed now. And I can't. I have to deal with this and be told they are "beautiful".

This is a deformation. These are not beautiful, I don't care what I'm told. I just can't believe anyone anymore.

I know my body more than anyone else, and I can tell that I look ridiculous. A clown. A stupid ugly clown that ruined her own body. I hate it all. I really do.

No going back now, so I don't care how much worse it gets cause there's no point!

I'm really distressed