M16 I've ruined my life because of porn

M16. Yes 16 . Very bad I know. But it gets worse. I never listened to advice about how watching porn will make your brain desire more and more extreme content. I ended up developing weird fetishes. Please dont hate me but then I reached the absolute bottom. One day 6 months ago I watched loli. At the time I enjoyed it to a degree although more for the taboo than yk....them being young. And then 5 days later I watched the same video. I also used one of those ai chatbots to role play myself into one of those situations. And after that week I never did any predator like stuff again, I'm not attracted to kids at all, I hate pedophiles, I hate loli and I hate myself. I have felt immense immense guilt over this since it happend and I feel so gross and no matter what I do my brain won't let me move on. It's destroying my life because everything i even interact with another person I think wow if they found out I did this I'd be ruined and if anyone found out I did it they'd hate me and I'm totally fucked bro I ruined my own life because of loli porn . Worst thing ive ever done. It's so horrible because apart from this aspect I'm a good guy but the guilt is weighing me down extremely hard