Need a change

Hi everyone! I have been a binge eater for years now. I eat in secret, when I am bored and I feel alone (and useless). I have already tried to talk to my partner about it, and to see a psychologist, but it doesn't work because I don't want to talk about it, I don't know how, I am really ashamed and paralyzed. I am trying to find the "courage" to do something about it (I don't know how to say it), as I feel that I can't continue anymore. I can't continue to go on this path, it costs a lot of money and I am afraid for my health (physical but also mental, because I am not doing anything with my life and I feel more and more empty).

Today is not day one unfortunately, but I have made a plan for tomorrow. I mostly work remotely but tomorrow I am going to work (where I am alone in an office...). Usually I buy a lot of snacks on my way there and back, so my goal is to take some food with me and not buy anything. I am already dreading tomorrow because I have already tried in the past and failed, so I hope that posting here will help me and I will try to be positive.

I now need to go to the grocery store to buy everything I need for tomorrow and nothing more, wish me luck!