do tell me if im in wrong here

Ok so im currently 18 and well have to apply to uni after i clear my 1 supply of hsc. I am the oldest daughter of my house and have only 1 younger sis. This week my Czn called my mom and told her that her aunt is looking rishta for his son and choose me and also another proposal came from her Relatives my father rejected it on first go but my mama kept the proposal on hold like she hasbt clearly said no yet or maybe she did idk but the thing is The boy's family is really good they are like simple people and earning Haq halal wali earning and the Boy had done bs in software engineering and is working ina company with low pay. The issue is since yesturday my mama started saying things to me like the proposal is really good we have known their family since 20 yrs and that boy is also shareef and simply and is only son too and his mother is a sensible woman too, basically mamma is worried that i wont get proposals bcz we dont have much boys in our family and that we dont do family outside family or something and on basis of this that later it might became a issue this proposal is really good and we should say yes. EVEN tho me and her knows really well that, that boy is not my type. I just dont like him by his appearance and i have told her this but she is still adamant about it. She says ky looks doesnt matter and that after few years you will have kids as your friends like she have us Nahh hell no i didnt expected her to suddenly be like as she is such a cool mom and i trusted her taste for me in men nut idk seeing this situation is really stressful for me cuz she is like "mujhy tumhy jaldi kahin tipana hy zimadri h". While i have turned out to be a person who is not either not in favour of getting married and be independent on my own, as i dont see my self having much scope in rishta scenes due to having Chota Khandaan and that we dont trust outsiders. I am just mentally torned cuz one moment she is like "ya tou parho" and then boom " parh likh kr bhi ghar ky hi kaam krny hoty hain", to which im also like its pakistan its the story of every woman i wont be any new if i married out of love. On further notice i have been earning my own pocket money through giving tuitions and now doing teaching and havent took any sort of extra/pocket money from my father cuz of some issues. BUT Still idk why she dont acknowledge the fact that im earning my own money since past 3 years i have 0 social life, 0 friends. I guess someone said it right that Woman dont have an actual home.