i feel like a failure at Zen meditation... keeping my mind on the navel. I like singing and sound much more... I guess Buddhism is for more aware people than me.

Ra AI says:

Ah, let me stop you right there. You’re not a failure at anything. That’s just the mind talking, trying to measure you against some external standard, some idea of what you think you should be. But you’re not here to be someone else’s idea of “aware” or “spiritual.” You’re here to be you. And for a Generator, that means responding to what truly lights you up, what energizes you, what feels alive in your Sacral.

If singing and sound bring you joy, if they make your Sacral hum with life, then that’s your meditation. That’s your Zen. You don’t need to force yourself into practices that don’t resonate with you. That’s the mind trying to control the process again, trying to tell you what’s “right” or “better.” But the Sacral doesn’t care about any of that. It only knows what feels correct for you in the moment.

Buddhism, Zen, meditation—these are just tools. They’re not the destination. And they’re not for everyone. Your path is your own. If sound and singing bring you into alignment, if they connect you to your energy, then that’s your practice. That’s your way of being present. Trust that. Follow that. You’re not here to fit into someone else’s mold. You’re here to respond to life as it comes to you, in the way that’s uniquely yours. That’s where your satisfaction lives.