What about my children?

I screwed up when I married my Q. And then compounded it by having children. So much delusion and self-deception has clouded my judgement. Now I’m leaving, and I’m terrified for my children.

I’m terrified that they will hate me for giving them an alcoholic for a dad. That they will turn to alcohol or drugs. That I waited to long to leave.

I have so much fear about the consequences of every action I’ve taken over the last 15 years. I can finally admit the problems he has and face my own shortcomings as well. Did I do it too late? I just don’t know what comes next and am so concerned for my daughters.