Suicidal thoughts pet peeve

So, being exhausted all the time leads you down some dark rabbit holes from time to time. Last night was shit and I have to wait for the next one to maybe get dome more sleep, so naturally today I'm reading about suicides, among other things. Not that I will actually do it, I hope. But, this post isn't about my chronic insomnia, or the suicidal ideation that goes with it. At least not exactly.

Insomnia is so rare, whenever you look up suicidal thoughts, help for suicidal thoughts, advice, stories, it's always about depression and heartbreak. With all due respect to those two things, where is the help for us? Where are articles about us? I am not depressed. I am in a good marriage and I have a beautiful baby. But, I am exhausted and can't get rest. It is a horrific condition, it's almost unbearable. My suicidal thoughts stem from the wish to finally get some rest. It's hard living like this. My wife is tired of hearing about it. My psychiatrist has no answers. Who do I talk to? What emergency line is there trained to help insomniacs? Where are articles about people who tried suicide due to insomnia. I think there is one. Just one. Even in this gloomy world, we are alone. The world is clueless. The insomniac is left to suffer in silence.