My father hate me 18m

Today im not in home for 2 hour and my phone was in home idk how I forgot! But when i came home he was very angry on meh for some wired reason and said that when he was small he was always with his father and all all and abuse me ass well and I don’t give any reason so that he was angry on me but his words hits me well thats so hard they said me to leave home and let them live happily 🙂 and my mother was died when im 4 that not new for me it’s happen ever month he was very shot tampered!!! Should i die ? Any solution?! My mental health drain slowly btw im 18m