Today or tomorrow I'm gonna have my monthly Breakdown wish me luck

Just want to vent and express my concerns as a person who continues to live but is dead inside.

Today or tomorrow I'm gonna have my monthly meltdown.

I can feel it. That dreadful state in the mirror I usually do.

That constant feeling of failure. That feeling of reality separating. Ahhh yes nothing feels real anymore.

It's gonna happen, I can feel it. Nothing I can do about it. Nothing far worse than working while having a meltdown.

Hopefully after the crash out I can still bounce back.

Im just 27, I still want to live and dream high. I still want to learn how to draw ( YEs I just want to draw )

But everything else is impairing me. I feel mentally exhausted and impaired at the same time.

But everyone else think of it as a joke and act as everyone has it.

Hopefully in the future. We get the rights we all need.

I'm sure someday someday things will get better.

It's not gonna be this year or the year I'm still alive.

But I'm hoping for a better future for all of us here.