Can I fix my lack of EQ and social skill when I grew up like this? It's been eating me alive since I got this office job and I'm sad I can't connect with anyone.

I never experience serious trauma, only of parents' avoidant emotionally? They spoiled me, rarely punish me, do chores for me, and take me to good schools, but they never talk about feelings and don't take me out to socialize? I feel guilty about blaming them but I feel like it is the reason I became this person who can't communicate normally. I can't hold up any conversation, easily forget things that just being said to me, don't know how to make small talks ot jokes. I think I have EQ of a 14 year old.

I hate feeling alone, and after 23 years of living I just realize this about myself. I thought I like being an introvert, but later found out it is just a deflection. I don't know how to change. I've been dreaming about scary things lately when I never think of before due to stress of having terrible social skill.