I can’t get out of bed

Last night after we were intimate, we were talking and I was asking him why he won’t hype me up? Like he will just say “I look nice” but won’t use adjectives. It hurts me especially since my self esteem is so low after all the hell he has put me through. After I said what I had to say, he said nothing to me…for 2 hours. Not even “I’m sorry”. I’m so hurt and it feels like it’s confirmed that he doesn’t use adjectives with me because he doesn’t believe I am. Adjectives like beautiful, gorgeous etc. He said he didn’t say anything because he was in defense mode. I mean wtf?! I’m so pissed, can’t get out of bed today. I want to call his mom (who knows about his porn addiction) and hope she would Come knock some sense into him but knowing her, it will probably be my fault. I’m so alone, I have no one on my side. We can’t afford a therapist right now so that’s not an option. This group is the only thing I have.