I relapsed last night

Posting for accountability and it just helps to get it off my chest. Sober from alcohol (9 months) and weed. Last night I took a gummie and then vaped some old half- vaped flower. I would have had 5 weeks weed free today and I just reset my counter.

The stress of putting on a kid’s party in our small house got to me. I felt like I just gave up and gave in. But waking up today, I have no desire to go back to it. I feel super groggy and out of it.

The perfectionist in me is so annoyed that I gave in after nearly 5 weeks of complete sobriety. But I also have been having alcohol cravings (which I have continued to abstain from) and I think I used that to justify the weed last night…because it’s true that the most important thing is to not drink.

I was enjoying my life not depending on this substance every morning of every day. This was a blip on the recovery radar and I am going right back to a zero THC lifestyle. I am not giving up.