New/ worsening of sides after 8 months

Hey, I'm just looking for some advice.

Started finasteride in December last year, only took it for a few weeks when I started developing sides, these included suicidal ideation, insomnia, anxiety, depression, penis pain, slight bend to my penis, sexual anhedonia, brain fog Anhedonia, lower libido, wrinkled/ shrunken penis, bloating and stomach issues and loss of appetite.

All these sides slowly left over the following months other than a small crash in may, which brought back insomnia and depression and lack of libido for a few weeks. I only really had a slight bend to my penis left and sexual anhedonia. I felt 95% better.

3 weeks ago, I randomly crashed hard, and since then, I've developed new sides while the old sides have returned. Sensitive/ painful nipples and think slight gyno. Muscle loss and my stomach is wrecked. My eyes have the biggest bags under them. Im constantly tired and exhausted. I've had muscle and what looks like collagen loss throughout my body. Spider web veins on penis and testical and penis pain, which seems worse than before. Near complete loss of libido, and my penis has so much loose skin and looks misshapen and smaller. (although this doesn't seem to be constant) my semen volume has drastically reduced also. I managed to have sex a few days ago, which thankfully was okay enough, but otherwise, I haven't had an erection for 2 weeks.

Has anyone had similar experiences and recovered?

Any advice would be welcome.

Thanks