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I’ve been married for 3 years and been together for 6 years with this guy. With our first born, he doubted me and asked me if the baby I’m carrying is his. It triggered something in me that I got upset with the question and wanting to divorce him, but when I calmed down, I told him I have been nothing but faithful to him all those years and I am 1000% sure the baby is his. I offered him to take paternity test. He then said it makes me more sound guilty offering him paternity test cos that means I’m not sure hence the need for paternity test. Wtf. That’s where I bursted. Long story short I forgave him and he promised that he will not question or doubt me anymore.

Fast forward today, I got pregnant with our second baby. We were happy amd excited until he told me today that there’s something that bothers him. Cos for context as well, when we decided to try again for baby no 2, I didn’t get pregnant right away like baby no 1, it’s been 4 months of trying then suddenly I got pregnant when both of us didn’t expect it anymore. He said it concerns him cos I went to a party without him 3 weeks before we found out I got pregnant. Mind you, our theory at first why we couldn’t get a positive is because he’s been taking testosterone supplements that has high chance to lower his sperm production. But ofc, he will suspect me again this second time around. I’ve been rethinking my choices now and all I can think of is to divorce him. I don’t want to raise two babies which is 1000% his with someone who is so easy to doubt me. He told me if he didn’t voice out his concern, he will be more depressed and unalive himself. Is that valid? Or I have to baby his feelings for the rest of my life?! I’m just sooooo mad and hurt right now that I’m starting to either hate this pregnancy, and I want to spend all my money for paternity test to shove in his face that I’ve been faithful (i’m a SAHM who sells food to earn cos him income is only enough for rent and daycare and his carloan)

All my life, people doubted me, family, ex boyfriends, always accusing me of something I didn’t do. It’s just so unfair and hurtful and pregnancy raging hormones don’t help. Please share your insights what to do, if I’m just overreacting or if my feeling are valid. I accprt constructive criticisms. Thank you so much.

Is it abusive when my husband doubts me every time i get pregnant that the baby i’m carrying is his?