Guys ik im new but I honestly think I wont be in this chat anymore

For so many years ive been suicidal contemplating it since I was 8 amd since then ive attempted 7 different time and now I do t want to fail again im 16 as of today so I think itd be ironic for me to go out on the same day I came in maybe a little poetic too so does anyone have any quick and painless ways that I can access as a 16 yr old