Can i take a low dose of test at 17?

i am 17 years old and i have been researching but i thought reddit would be a good place for actually knowledgeable opinions.

i’m wondering if i could take 1ml of test per week for a 10 week cycle, and what the effects would be like.

would i see any muscle growth? would i be more easily irritated? would my body stop natural test production? would i see long term side effects like infertility?

Just want to know if theres any point to it, because i know its a shortcut and very frowned upon but its just constantly nagging at me that i could be a better looking version of myself. i’ve never liked my body honestly and i just want to look in a mirror and be happy.