How are you guys holding up?

I’m currently 24, I smoke half a pack a day drink every time I get the chance (even by creating it myself), pop any benzo I can take my hands on and just recently tripped on lsd just because I was bored and I didn’t have anything else available to get high.

Did some coke and mdma a couple of times but not a big user, tried oxycontin twice and hated it.

I spent most of the night either skipping them and staying up 48 hours straight or sleeping 10+ a night.

All this to say that I feel miserable and shitty all the time. I just wanted to know if someone relates to this or someone is actually enjoying their addictions.