It’s ok if it’s just me…

I should probably stop reading r/UnsentText or the other one r/Letters_Unsent. For the ones who implored and seeking for love, for the ones who wondered about their suddenly silent lovers and for the ones who wondered about what could haves; those just fucking did it for me.

T, it pained me to think you’d be in that situation. I wanted to run back to you. I wanted to reach out immediately. This feeling is so great and fervent. Fuck T I miss you.

Something always stopped me though.

And you know what that is… I need you more than you need me.

I know you have reasons, I get it. But when you’re not around, when you were suddenly unavailable; I keep wondering where you were, why I was the only one who always waited and seeking and wondering.

Returning to you will hurt us more in the long run.

I consoled myself with the thoughts that maybe you’re not as affected as I am. I prayed that I am the only one feeling this pain from our distance. I hope you’re feeling blasé, that your every day life goes well and smooth. I wish you’re doing good and happy.

I want this so much for you.

May all the pain be mine.