for anyone who was in my shoes and passed, any guidance/advice would be appreciated

I failed Step 1 in March, with the result released mid-April. I believe I missed passing by around 20 points. It was a very difficult experience, and it took me some time to process and restart.

In May, I began a new job and tried to balance studying with work, though my preparation wasn’t very consistent. Since then, I’ve gone back through most of my system-based incorrects and recently took two months off work to fully dedicate myself to preparing for my retake on November 10.

In my first attempt, I had already used every NBME, assessment, and the Free 120, but unfortunately, my scores were poor (mostly high 50s, with a maximum of 62). Currently, the subjects I still need to cover are immunology, pathology, pharmacology, and biochemistry.

I’ve been working through UWorld systematically, scoring in the 65–75% range. However, I worry these scores may not reflect my true level of preparedness since I recognize many of the questions from prior attempts. At this point, I feel unsure how to accurately assess myself, and I’m very anxious about failing again.

I have about five and a half weeks left and only NBME 32 remaining, which I plan to take in late October. I’m honestly horrified at the thought of not performing well on it.

Any guidance would be greatly appreciated.