who do I reach out to when I've already reached out to everyone

I've been depressed and suicidal for the past 4 years and I've yet to figure out what I'm supposed to do about it.

I've been to 4 different psychiatrists who would only throw medication at my face and disregard any side effects concern I've had or just any words I've ever said to them. The only time I've told a medical professional that I was suicidal was with my last psychiatrist who chuckled at me, asking if I was going to hang myself for around 20 minutes then threaten to have me hospitalized.

I've tried getting a disabled worker certificate but the psychiatrist there talked to me for around 5 minutes and told me I wasn't depressed.

People tell you to reach out to friends and family but I've yet to find success in that too. My mom told me to "stop feeling that way" and my dad and sibling have simply chosen to ignore it. I've tried telling friends but all they did was to disallow conversation of suicide in the group and throw suicide help lines at me.

I know people will tell me to go see a mental professional and to "try again" but for obvious reasons I would prefer if that wasn't the advice. I'm also autistic and selectively mute which doesn't help, especially the mute part.

For context, I'm 20, french, live with my parents and don't have an income.

Please don't tell me that "it will get better" unless you're planning to personally come over and turn my live upside down.

And so I'm not sure what kind of advice I'm even looking for.