so i met someone special but he’s 10 years older.. is that crazy?

hey guys i met someone special at church at the beginning of the year. the way we met was pretty cool in my opinion, we were able to bond off of music. I expressed my admiration for him in a really friendly way (i didn’t see him romantically at all in this stage, just someone that was really cool to me) anyways fast forward to the middle of the year, i hadn’t been going to church for like 2 months and we didn’t talk outside of church at all. I came back and after some time he started to look at me differently. I found myself locking eyes with him a little more and feeling new feelings…? like a new attraction? but it’s like it came out of nowhere, and idk what the source is or why or what his motives are. all i know is im just now realizing how handsome he is and how beautiful his eyes are. he stays in the back of my mind, even though we don’t talk privately, and we just have eachother’s social medias. (i notice him popping up on my timeline more now too lmao) he calls me “baby girl” and sings a lot when i’m around. he has a big personality. pretty loud and charismatic. that’s all i got 😂 we’re like 10 years apart tho, idk if that’s weird but i did end up deciding to leave that church yesterday. i’m not expecting to be contacted or chased but im still thinking about the whole thing