Suicide is hard :?

!As a young child I always thought about which way I would commit suicide, I thought it was really simple when i was younger, like either gun to your head, OD, hanging, etc. But recently I've become sick of forcing myself for other people and decided to be selfish and end my shit but I have this horrid fear of extreme pain (trauma or sum) and hate any thought of it. Most if not all ways are extremely painful and the ones that i feel like would go quick are currently unavailable to me. So I wanted to know if drinking a bunch of chemicals would do the trick? Like a cocktail of bleach, detergent, acetone , etc. Or should I just suck it up and jump? (give tips if ya'll have any)!<