Give me a date

A friend I had on a group we were both in ( suicide watch) killed themselves... They messaged me today saying thanks for talking to them they've reached the end of the road remember the can't anymore. They prob did it by gun. I guess I'm a hypocrite... I get excited by the fact of dying. Imma post on that group for someone to tell me a date and I'll commit to it... The pain of continuing to live is getting more and more unbearable... Gimme a date